Tuesday, July 23, 2013

storm's a comin

I'm having a bit of a struggle round these parts at the moment. Sick kids, stressed/busy husband, crazy Mum.

I keep on thinking, we should be doing better than this! What reason do we have for these doldrums? What reason do I have for my bad humour, and my grumpiness? I know I should be a better Mum, a better wife, a better person.

But I'm still here. And I'm just me.

The other day I was watching the sky all day, because I had washing on the line and I knew it was going to rain. I watched the clouds slowly move across the sky and saw the sky get dark. We went outside to cover the sandpit, and I pulled the washing off the line.

I felt the sky get heavy, and the air around me become more oppressive. I watched the birds flap around in a panic, as the wind started to blow, and I watched my children run around in excitement.... they felt it too. As the first few drops fell, I lifted my eyes up to feel it on my face, and the kids danced around for a few moments, then we scurried inside before the rain started to fall in earnest.

I feel like I am in a state of anticipation. I know that I need a change, of some sort. I know that I need a little something extra to carve out, just for me. I need a some goals and some plans, that are bigger and more important than getting the floor clean, or the folding done, or the bathroom scrubbed.

I don't know what it is. But I am waiting. Praying. Hoping. I need a little something more

Storm's a comin.



  1. I know that feeling well. You described it perfectly. I often say: you need the rain to have the rainbow.

    It's an exciting and daunting time, change. But so worth it.

    Look forward to hearing more x

  2. Hey lovely, not really sure what it is I want to say, in fact if this was anyone else's blog I probably wouldn't comment, but I wanted you to know I stopped by and that I can totally understand what you are talking about. I feel like I have been standing on the edge of change for quite some time now. Sending lots of fairy wishes and butterfly kisses your way xx

  3. I know the feeling Robyn. I am sure you are doing an amazing job as a mum and wife. No one has it together, I certainly don't and I am often very hard on myself. I hope that you can find something 'more' to make you feel more alive. x


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