The truth is that I just don't do well after babies. The first six months everything is fine and dandy, and then after that I just watch myself.. slip.
I believe that things can get better. I believe that God loves me. That who he is makes who I am enough. But I don't feel it right now. I think of my future. And my life, and everything I am responsible for and to. And I just feel weary and exhausted. It would be so very nice to go to sleep for a very, very long time.
But I am here. Still trying. Still trusting. And I know that God is greater than my struggles. I just have to keep going.