Limbo

I am so tired of waiting. I feel like I'm in some kind of holding pattern. Just waiting for the next part of my life to start. I know that having another baby is going to make things so much more difficult and complicated. I know I am going to be so incredibly tired.

But I will not be pregnant.

I'm tired of feeling so heavy. I'm tired of aching, of being so large and cumbersome. I am sick of being a subject of commentary for every single person I see. I don't blame people, but at the same time I am so sick of saying 'Yep. Still pregnant.'

I have another appointment on Tuesday, and they will do a stretch and sweep (ick) if the baby still hasn't arrived. But I really don't want to be induced. Georgie was induced and I don't want to do that again. I know it will be much better for all of us if I can just sit this out and wait for the baby to come in it's own time. I don't want to be induced unless there is a valid medical reason for it. But Oh! I am so ready for this baby to come. I just need to patient a little while longer.

I want to meet this new little person. To find out if it is a girl or a boy. To see who this is. I want the labour over and done with so I can stop fretting about things going badly. There are so many questions I have, that can only be answered after this baby arrives.

I know that I just need to cope. Get on with this. In the grand scheme of things it is nothing. There are so many people facing so many terrible and horrific things and here I am whining about being pregnant (seriously?). This baby will come in it's own perfect time.

But I am more than ready to get out of this limbo. I am ready for the next chapter.

Linking up with Kellie at The Good, the Bad & The Unnecessary who is the new host of Things I know.

Just a few things...

Today I'm linking up with Shae at Yay for home for her last Things I know, and I'll also flog with Glowless, with a couple of things that I have learned/ been reminded of this week.

1. Kids hurt themselves. Even though looking at a mark on your poor baby's face will make you feel like the worst mother in the world, life happens. Some days, children are just accident-prone, and they will climb a chair and fall and hurt themselves. Yes, you probably could have been watching her more closely, but everyone is entitled to go to the toilet. She is fine. Stop blaming yourself and get over it. She has!

My poor baby and her 'Owchie'.

2. When you are about to leave the house and the sky looks a little heavy, and you think to yourself 'I really should take those clothes off the line'.... the thought DOESN'T count. Take the clothes off the line. You won't regret it.

3. It is okay to not resist temptation every now and then and buy something pretty. Even though it's Christmas and money is a little tight.... sometimes, a little something can help brighten up the house and help inspire you to make things look good. It is nice to live in a house that looks nice. Occasionally it is all right to say 'Yes' to yourself instead of 'No'.

A new print for Georgie's room. I loves it.

4. Daytime naps when you are 38 weeks pregnant should be mandatory. And you should milk pregnancy for all it's worth the first time around. Because being pregnant while looking after a toddler? Just not as fun.

5. Good friends are worth their weight in gold, and a decent talk and visit with one will always help on a day when you are feeling a bit flat. Sometimes going out can seem like too much work, but there is nothing like flopping on someone else's couch for a bit. Enjoy the fact that you can be that comfortable with other people. It is good for the soul.

Dear Santa....

As a kid I don't really remember believing in Santa Clause. It's not like my parents ever sat me down and told me he wasn't real, but we never really 'did' Santa either, if you know what I mean. We didn't get presents from him, and I can't recall leaving food out for him or anything like that. I think we were mostly taught about Jesus and about how He was the one we remembered at Christmas. And that's probably what I see myself doing with my children too. Never outright saying 'Santa's not real' but showing that for us, Jesus is the Christmas-dude.

But nonetheless. I decided I would compose a wishlist of my own, just getting in early with some things that I would love for Christmas because the lovely Daisy from Daisy Roo and Two tagged me. Besides, you never know, do you? Even if Santa doesn't deliver (and I'm not holding my breath) there's always a chance a rich and kindly benefactor could read my blog and say 'she sounds like a nice person.' Hey, it could happen!

So here's my Christmas wishlist.

An Iphone.

I know right? How is it possible I don't have one? How technologically challenged am I? But the fact is, these things are a bit expensive, and my current phone costs us hardly anything, because we own it and it's prepaid. Plus, I don't really use my phone enough to warrant it. But I still really, really want one. Mostly just for instagram and all the cool apps. One day I'll get one!

A day spa package

Doesn't that just sound wonderful? I would love to have a full beauty treatment at a spa, but it's the kind of thing I just couldn't justify spending on myself. There is that whole problem of there being no day spa in my town, but after all this is a wish list.


A thermomix

These things are seriously awesome (and seriously expensive!)

A bread slicing guide

You might be saying a what? But these things are actually pretty good! I make my own bread, and I have an electric knife, but I slice some pretty uneven bits of bread. Normally it's Shane's job to slice it, because he does a much better job than I do. But when he's away or just too busy to get to it, we end up eating some pretty wonky slices of bread. One of these would come in very handy in our household!

Towels

I know, I know.... But the fact is, our towels are getting quite old. They aren't dead yet, but they're on their way, and I would love some beautiful, soft fluffy towels. I am officially old and boring.


Good Books

I know that it makes much more sense to want one of these

and believe me, if someone was to give me one I would totally love it! But at the same time, for me, I still find that there's something nice about the written word on a page rather than on an electronic screen. I just prefer it. But, you know, either one is fine!


A new bedspread

I would really love one of these. Our bed at the moment is covered by a quilt. It does the job, but I would love to get a really beautiful bedspread. They just make a bed look so lovely and smooth, not lumpy and uneven like quilts. I've been looking, but haven't found the exact right one yet, plus they are a bit expensive, so when I get one I want to get the right one. One day I will have a beautiful bed!



I'm going to stop myself there. Because while there are plenty more things I could add to this here list (a new wardrobe, a makeover, a weekend away, a cleaner, etc) the fact is, for the most part, I'm sitting pretty. There's not a whole lot of 'stuff' I actually need. And I am very grateful for that.

I'm linking this one up with Shae at Yay for home for Things I know, because I kind of qualify.... this list is things I know I want after all! And I'll link up with Glowless seeing as it's Friday.

Make sure you pop over to the Circle of Mums page and vote for me too, (if you don't mind) and a big thank you to everyone who has been voting. I don't quite know who all of you are, but I am very grateful! I'm sitting at number 25 at the moment, (to be honest I'm a little stunned about that) but there's still 8 more days to go!

5 Things that tell me I know I am over being pregnant....

The clock is slowly ticking. Four weeks left. I am starting to be really over being pregnant. So I decided to link up with Shae for a pregnancy-themed Things I know this week.

Sadly, NOT me.

1. I hurt. Everywhere. But especially my back. I am so tired of lying down, and then not being able to get back up because I literally can't. Even the physio is not doing much good anymore. I just want to be able to move!

It's a funny picture, but it actually is quite sad how much this cat and I have in common!

2. This week I have literally cried over spilled milk. I am crying all of the time. I am so touchy and hormonal and I cannot seem to do anything about it (but cry).

3. I know that I am definitely over being pregnant when bending over to pick something up becomes a marathon task of epic proportions.

4. Sore feet and cankles. Not pretty. Enough said.

5. The idea of sleepless nights, a screaming infant and sore sore boobies all sound better than the idea of being pregnant a moment longer.


I'm also linking up with Sar-Wah for Flog Yo Blog Friday. Happy Weekend everyone!

Oh, and if you don't mind, I would love it if you could pop over to the Circle of Mums page and give me your vote. I really would appreciate it!

Things I know....

I know I *may have eaten an entire one of these today.... but calories don't count when you're pregnant and it's your birthday right?

*and by may I mean did.


I know there is nothing funnier than watching your child fall asleep while eating lunch. It's the little things that make parenting great.


I know birthdays get to be a lot less exciting when you get older. But I still have a wonderful husband who has never yet failed to bring me flowers on my special day.

I know my child is a really heavy sleeper. Because when our smoke alarm went off today, (I totally forgot I was cooking something) she didn't even stir.


I know I have been thinking a bit about Christmas lately. And you know what? I think Mary is my new hero right now. Think about it, she was fully pregnant and had to make a huge journey (on a donkey no less, which could not have been too comfortable) plus, she was probably in labour during that time. It's given me a whole new appreciation for just how much she would have gone through, and I am so glad I'm not her!



I know I'm going to make a Coconut and Mango Meringue Roll for the party tonight. It is one of my favorite desserts, and one of those wonderful things that looks very fiddly and impressive but is surprisingly easy.

I'm linking up with Shae at Yay for home, for Things I know, and Glowless for Flog Yo Blog Friday.

Things I know.... while I am dreaming of a nap

Linking up with Shae for some Things I know....

1. Our camera is not being spacky, but is proper broke now. And the warranty has run out :( So we are going to need to sort that out before number 2 makes it's way into the world, otherwise this baby really will feel that whole second-child-nobody-loves-me-because-there-are-no-photos-of-me.

3. We have had a week of sick that has now finished with a tummy bug just for fun. On a related note, our beach holiday can't get here fast enough.... 1 week and counting!!! Can. not. wait.

4. They should totally give these to kids when they do sex-ed classes at school....

Too funny.

And that's about it for now. I have many brilliant (or I think so anyway) ideas for posts, but somehow when the time actually comes to write, they all fly out of my head and I am stuck sitting in front of the computer dreaming about a nap.

5 Things I know

1. I wanted to go to the pool. I have been desperate to go for a swim ever since it opened a couple of weeks ago, but held off because Georgie and I have been sick. Now, today, when Mum said she would look after Georgie this afternoon (because she's still got a runny nose and isn't well enough yet) it is raining. Raining! Not fair! It is cold and wet and miserable and it's like winter is taunting me, saying 'You only thought I was gone'.

sadly, not today

2. I though the rain might mean that Shane got to stay home today, which would have been lovely, but alas, he is stuck in the shed doing maintenance.

3. Rainy days are made nicer by the fact that today is my churches monthly Kids Play morning, so I get to go along and drink coffee and watch my baby play while I chat to other lovely ladies, and we alternate between moaning about our children and watching them with pride, instead of watching Georgie bang at the screen door wanting to go outside.

4. No matter how much she frustrates me, or drives me crazy sometimes with her busy, busy little hands that won't leave anything alone, there is still nothing like walking in to a little girl who has just woken up and gives you the biggest grin. It is the nicest part of the day (closely followed by the end of the day when she goes to bed).

That smile makes everything better

5.  I know that the Government is far from perfect, but I am still very very grateful that we live in a country where I can be given a little bit of money because I stay home looking after my child. We just got all our Family Assistance for the last financial year (we elected to get it in a lump sum) and it is really, really nice to actually have savings again!



Linking up with Shae at Yay for Home for Things I know today, and Glowless for Flog Yo Blog Fridays.