I am so tired of waiting. I feel like I'm in some kind of holding pattern. Just waiting for the next part of my life to start. I know that having another baby is going to make things so much more difficult and complicated. I know I am going to be so incredibly tired.
But I will not be pregnant.
I'm tired of feeling so heavy. I'm tired of aching, of being so large and cumbersome. I am sick of being a subject of commentary for every single person I see. I don't blame people, but at the same time I am so sick of saying 'Yep. Still pregnant.'
I have another appointment on Tuesday, and they will do a stretch and sweep (ick) if the baby still hasn't arrived. But I really don't want to be induced. Georgie was induced and I don't want to do that again. I know it will be much better for all of us if I can just sit this out and wait for the baby to come in it's own time. I don't want to be induced unless there is a valid medical reason for it. But Oh! I am so ready for this baby to come. I just need to patient a little while longer.
I want to meet this new little person. To find out if it is a girl or a boy. To see who this is. I want the labour over and done with so I can stop fretting about things going badly. There are so many questions I have, that can only be answered after this baby arrives.
I know that I just need to cope. Get on with this. In the grand scheme of things it is nothing. There are so many people facing so many terrible and horrific things and here I am whining about being pregnant (seriously?). This baby will come in it's own perfect time.
But I am more than ready to get out of this limbo. I am ready for the next chapter.
Linking up with Kellie at The Good, the Bad & The Unnecessary who is the new host of Things I know.
hang in there my lovely! one minute at a time if you need to... fingers crossed that baby chooses to enter this world soon, all on its own x
ReplyDeleteLimbo sucks so bad! I send you the little patience I can spare, and hopefully there will be no need to induce... Just... A... Teency... Bit... Longer!
ReplyDeleteIt won't be too long now. The end of pregnancy is difficult. You will be soon holding your beautiful little bub in your arms :) Best wishes.
ReplyDeleteIt is tough these last few days (I had three go to 42wks so I really know how you are feeling) Fairy wishes and butterfly kisses for a beautiful birth when the time is right. Wishing you all the very best for the year ahead
ReplyDeleteI certainly understand the discomfort of pregnancy. I was pregnant ith triplets 12 weeks ago! Of course got nowhere near 40 weeks! All the best in the baby arriving before they start doing {nasty} things to you!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the birth and welcoming home number two. From Alissa@look.find.inspire
ReplyDeleteI remember the frustration of the last weeks of pregnancy. I'll keep everything crossed that you go naturally very soon!
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best of luck :)
Very best of luck to you. Hope all goes well.
ReplyDeleteTami
http://www.thethingswefindinside.com/
I've been here. I hear your frustration and know so much how it feels. The last week of pregnancy is longer than the previous nine months.
ReplyDeletePraying that your baby makes a speedy entrance very soon- Praise God for babies!
I think the whole point of late pregnancy is to get us past the whole, 'Oh no! A whole person has to get out of my body *somehow* and however it happens it won't be pleasant...' By the time we get to 40 weeks, we generally don't care how it happens, so long as it does and NOW! As someone who shortest pregnancy was induce at 40+4 (and the other three were born at 40+14, 40+12 and 40+10), I can honestly say I feel your pain, your utter frustration! Ironically, the 40 odd weeks AFTER baby is born will pass in the blink of an eye... Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteOh I feel for you. I went 3 days over with Miss 15 and every single day felt like an e-t-e-r-n-i-t-y (esp as Mr 17 came early!). I took a couple of tablesp of castor oil (disgusting stuff) and Miss 15 was born that day. But it gave me terrible dire-rear (LOL) first so dunno if I can recommend it!
ReplyDeleteOh Robyn. :-( It is horrible, waiting, isn't it. Sorry I'm one of the ones who keeps pestering you.:( we are all so excited to meet your little bundle and see if bub is pink or blue. All the best wishes and praying for you for patience and peace but also asking God to finish putting the finishing touches on bub so you can get this show on the road already. One piece of sticking-my-nose-in, have you tried pineapple?
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